I came back last Friday from the Ultimate Leadership camp quite ill… my upper lip was covered with fever blisters, about 20 bruises from paint ball, shivering and incoherent.
I made a stop at my chiropractor and then went to sleep about 50 hours of severely disturbed sleep: I was marching with my squad mates in my dream, delirious, exhausted.
It took me till Tuesday to be able stay up and get some work done, but I felt very tired and took frequent breaks.
On Wednesday I called my Kabbalah teacher for advice: when I came to, I noticed that my place was in complete disarray, and that I felt really bad about myself. We had a short conversation, and then I went to sleep with the intention to get some answers to my burning questions: to become a better person.
In the middle of the night I had a dream where I was up to my knees in trash in my apartment, and I was disgusted and depressed. Then I had a message come to me: I have the tools to restore myself and my place, and become a person who finishes things that she starts.
I woke up before the sun, and knew what I needed to do: I made a list of all the major unfinished business I had, especially my apartment, and felt ready to attack it. I thought it was going to take 3 days, but alas, the first day, yesterday, I got only 4 things done on my list of over 20 items, so it will take longer, but I feel encouraged: just 4 things have made a dent in the mess: I actually see that it works, so I am not going to give up.
Amazing breakthrough: I am the kind of person who follows through and finishes what she starts. That is the new me! I am proud of myself, and I am grateful for the message and the Light’s support.
Yaay!